The Catalyst Who Participated !!!

Prices were right

2011-06-19T21:26:00.004+05:30

Sometimes it happens

in the market,

prices were not too high,

not too asking,

It was just that

my pockets were not full,

I dug deep and found nothing but a hole,

I lost you in the same way.

Someone else paid the price,

and bought you.

Another wild dream

2011-04-29T04:04:00.006+05:30

It’s a lazy Saturday morning. It is sunny and bright outside our room. Somebody knocks at the door. You get out of the bed to check. You are wearing a white sleeveless vest and underpants and then put on a Capri. Your hair is untied, filling the room with your fragrance.

The moment you open the door, our son comes in running and leaps into the bed and says, “Good morning daddy!!!”.

“Good morning tiger!!!”, is my reply.

You complain, “Gentlemen! There is somebody else is in the room, too.”

Ignoring you, he whispers in my ears, “Daddy, I don’t want to go to school.”

“And the reason is??”, I reply in interrogative.

“Don’t speak so loud, mama is here. I want to play the game that we bought yesterday. I can’t wait till evening.”

“Ok, let me try” , I said and turn my face towards you. You are making a knot of your hair.

“You know, sweetie, I feel, we are not giving enough time to our son. What if he bunks school today? We’ll have the whole day together, what you say??”

You are the discipline keeper of the family and I am the lenient one, who loves to do small naughty acts with the kid. The acts that he missed in his childhood and wants to relive his most precious time with his son.

“No way!!! Nobody is skipping the school. We have Sunday to spend together”, you say and give him a toothbrush with toothpaste on it.

We have lost the very first battle of the day to you.

Our son is furious. I take him in my lap and go to the washbasin, you follow us and say, “I’ve been watching you, you are getting out of control, I don’t like you making faces every day.”

He doesn’t know that you are following us, our son says in rage, “Daddy! Mama itna gussa kyu karati hai? Aapko aur koi ladki nahi mili thi shadi karne ko? Bas yahi mama hi mili thee? ”

The moment you hear his words, you break out laughing. You give him a kiss on his cheek and hug him tight from behind.

His anger is not subdued and he says,” Ab maar hi daalogi kya?”

“Haan”, is your reply and you give him another hug followed by a kiss.

I pretend to be jealous and I say, “Ham par to kabhi itna pyar nahi aataa aapko. Junior pe sara pyar deti hain. Ab samjha hamare hisse ka pyaar jataa kahan hai."

“Senior had his quota last night. And by the way he is becoming more demanding and wilder every day, I’ll have to do something”, you warn me.

“You don’t need to do anything, just stop becoming more beautiful with every passing day and thanks for giving me the most amazing kid of the world. I am indebted with my life to you”, is the thought that comes into my mind. And I smile to myself.

I look at you and my son, and challenge the whole world ‘is there any better family on the face of earth??’ And I am the one who wins the challenge every single morning, because I know the answer. God, please please shield my family from all the evils. Amen.

[I woke up sweating, I'm thirsty. I don't want to lose even a single bit of this dream. I am writing it and it is 4 in the morning. What a way to start a day. A sleepless night.]

Little Bit More / Dr Hook

2011-03-26T17:52:00.004+05:30

In my dreams you wear nothing but these boots. And I am lost in your eyes. I wish I never see the morning sun with red aura. I want this night to last forever. You are tired and I relax you. I try to loosen your stiff muscles. I rub your shoulder not because you need my assistance, but because I want to steal some air getting filtered through your hair and smelling like heaven. Don’t close your eyes, the sky will fall short of black color and the dawn will paint the sky with white.

When your body's had enough of me
And I'm layin' flat out on the floor
When you think I've loved you all I can
I'm gonna love you a little bit more

Come on over here and lay by my side
I've got to be touchin' you
Let me rub your tired shoulders
The way I used to do
Look into my eyes and give me that smile
The one that always turns me on
And let me take your hair down
'Cause we're stayin' up to greet the sun

And when your body's had enough of me
And I'm layin' flat out on the floor
When you think I've loved you all I can
I'm gonna love you a little bit more

Got to say a few things that have been on my mind
And you know where my mind has been
I guess I learned my lessons
And now's the time to begin
So if you're feelin alright and you're ready for me
I know that I'm ready for you
We better get it on now
'Cause we got a whole life to live through

And when your body's had enough of me
And I'm layin' flat on the floor
When you think I've loved you all I can
I'm gonna love you a little bit more

And when your body's had enough of me
And I'm layin' flat out on the floor

All I want / Joni Mitchell

2011-03-14T20:00:00.005+05:30

There are moments in life, when the person you love most, hurts. What an irony. The time passes by, you remember every moment that you spent with her. The small fights, the time when you refused to fight calming that if losing the fight is so joyous then who is going to take risk of winning, you remember the sleepy nights, and you take cup of tea to make it insomniac and you sit in the balcony and talk till the birds start chirping. The awake nights that make you try to be the best man you can ever be...

Last night heard Joni Mitchell with the song ‘All I Want’. A good song. Especially a song sounds good if it sings out our heart. What else can I say? Just enjoy the song.

I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Traveling, traveling, traveling
Looking for something, what can it be
Oh I hate you some, I hate you some
I love you some
Oh I love you when I forget about me
I want to be strong I want to laugh along
I want to belong to the living
Alive, alive, I want to get up and jive
I want to wreck my stockings in some juke box dive
Do you want - do you want - do you want
To dance with me baby
Do you want to take a chance
On maybe finding some sweet romance with me baby
Well, come on

All I really really want our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you too
All I really really want our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you
I want to talk to you, I want to shampoo you
I want to renew you again and again
Applause, applause - life is our cause
When I think of your kisses
My mind see-saws
Do you see - do you see - do you see
How you hurt me baby
So I hurt you too
Then we both get so blue

I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Looking for the key to set me free
Oh the jealousy, the greed is the unraveling
It's the unraveling
And it undoes all the joy that could be
I want to have fun, I want to shine like the sun
I want to be the one that you want to see
I want to knit you a sweater
Want to write you a love letter
I want to make you feel better
I want to make you feel free
Hmm, Hmm, Hmm, Hmm,
Want to make you feel free
I want to make you feel free

Rona Chod Diya

2011-03-02T19:43:00.004+05:30

While surfing I found another tune that caught my attention. A couple of voices, drew me. Good Pakistani singers have performed on Coke Studio. The song is sung by Zeb & Haniya and Javed Bashir. Here is the song and the lyrics.

[There is no inherent meaning. Just a song that I liked.]

Teri batoon nay dil torra
To nay dekha or moun morra
Badal garja thorra thorra

Teri batoon nay dil torra
To nay dekha or moun morra
Badal garja thorra thorra

Pani barsa ye dil tarsa
Par jab beta thorra arsa
Main nay rona chor dia

Guzray thay jin say rastay wahi
Anjana hay ban gaien
Karni thi tujh say baat ankahi
Shayed chupsi hay sahi

Halchal main hay sagar sabhi
Sakin hay kuch junbish nahi
Yoheen guzray hay zindagi
Jeetay koi koi

App to bas main aik khabbar hoon
Gardish main hoon rahguzar hoon
Toofaan hoon main tera darr hoon

Chal pari hay kal ki kohi
Himaat hay to rokay koi
Main nay rona chorr dia

Main nay rona chorr dia…

Girtay patoon nay aas hay bhari
Kal na ayegi kabhi
Bandho dharas ab waqt hay yahi

Kar guzro sab kuch abhi

Gardish main hay mousm sabhi
Theeri nahi rokay nahi
Rasm-e-dunia hay to yahi
Pohnchay koi koi

Teri batoon nay dil torra
To nay dekha or moun morra
Badal garja thorra thorra

Pani barsa ye dil tarsa
Par jab beta thorra arsa
Main nay rona chor dia..
Main nay rona chor dia…

Your Booty.... / Gaurav

2010-12-04T19:01:00.003+05:30

On the barren lands of my thoughts,

You walk barefoot…

Everyday you get blisters on your feet,

And you fight everyday with the animal inside me,

But I never saw the pain on your face.

The bush with thrones that lies between,

The difference of our decisions,

You get stuck between them,

You fall in the attempt to move ahead,

But I never saw the pain on your face.

And I am the silent one,

No, the dumb one.

I see everything - I feel everything,

But I can’t say the word that I always want to say,

That you deserve more than everything in the world,

That is not a reward but the booty of the Victor….

“THANK YOU”

Last Monday

2010-06-24T11:52:00.005+05:30

Last Monday, when you and me,

Were together,

And the Sun was sliding from the hill,

A watch was tied to your wrist,

Few minutes just slipped from it.

I picked up those minutes and

kept them in my pocket,

I tried that you didn’t see it.

You are with your parents,

Today when I am away from you,

I wander with these minutes with me.

In the city buses, on the roads,

In my office staircase.

I insert my hand into pocket frequently after

Some intervals,

Just to assure myself that

I didn’t drop any one of them,

Or none of them escaped from my possession

All these moments sound like the coins,

They don’t sound like ticking of watches,

They always remind me of their presence.

And their value.

I smell them everyday,

They are the biggest reason behind

My waking up every morning…..

Hungry Eyes

2010-05-28T18:35:00.007+05:30

Why to blame Eyes only? Who is not hungry? Who is not starving?

My head to have the feeling of you,
lips to kiss you,
nose to have smell of you,
hands to have one hug of yours when I try to dissolve you into me,
chest is waiting to receive another passionate kiss,
Who is not dying? Who is not starving?

Just a request

2010-05-16T00:06:00.007+05:30

Hey you... allow me to have just one night when you do not come to my dreams and let me sleep. I am having tough time. I can't handle all the challenges together. I am not a superman. Don’t you have something else to do? I have spent enough nights sleepless. I can’t tolerate more. I have my own limitations. My own boundaries. I am getting tired. I am too human; I have many commitments to keep. Just allow me some nights without you. Without your fragrance, without your glow, without your smell.

Survival Search

2010-04-18T23:04:00.006+05:30

It will happen for a while...
The voice full of life
will come for a second,
will cross by your side

and your chest will be wrapped in fire
you will just sigh.
your will remember the time passed by.

I go breathless like a patient of asthama.
Searching for my life in the air.
And I find myself denied.
My soul whispers and complains

I try my best to console it,
I am denied..my buddy...
it is not my fault
I am forbidden to call my life
My life is dissoved into the air.
However strong I cough...
however I try to gasp the maximum air I can...
I will choke

I don't know which country you live...
the country is out of my reach...
the smell of the air that comes filtered of your hair...
with the hope of my life...
you sing in the language unknown...
but all the songs are tangled in your
beautiful body and your soul...

Now I have only one song in my memory
and that is your laugh in never
dying tune of fifth note of music.

Random Contours/ Gaurav

2010-04-06T18:07:00.010+05:30

If you are not here with me
then lost in whose words I,
forget to close the running tap
when I shave.

whose warm smell fills my cold room,
and I run searching for
lighted up incense Stick.

Whose breathes slide on my chest,
and whose dew drops make my cheeks wet?

You can fool others,
but not me,
I know,
you live here only,
with me in my room.

Adieu / Gaurav

2009-12-23T17:51:00.006+05:30

I held the corpse of my hopes
tightly to my heart
I have been sad for ages.
You shocked me every time,
and I devastated myself.
I sighed and remembered you,
Whenever I saw any silken dress.

And when close to my heart,
there is a lonely sad cloud,
of sorrow,
you have come with the burning cheeks,
to lit up the dead lamps.

My sweetheart,
this shout of renewal of love,
is not good for my frustrated life,
the flowers once I selected for your feet,
I don't have even their bleak picture in my mind.

Just a accumulated sadness has covered
my heart and soul
Inside me there is no hope.
My helpless life has been
pressed under the excessive
burden o frustration.

To My AGAPE..../Gaurav

2009-10-03T17:52:00.021+05:30

Hey my Agape,
Where have you been for so many days? Seems so busy... really??? So busy that even you don't have time to come to my dreams and make my night sleepless. Even I wonder. How was I able not to remember you, recall the time spent with you. Last night I was thinking about it only. And last night I penned down my fantasy that I have for so long. May be this will set you angry... hope you will forgive me as you have always done.

"When I wake up
and find your laughing wet face
The dew drops raining from your hair
kiss my face
and the creses on the bed are glowing like you
and the pillow smelling like your hair.
And I dive deep into the pillow to have a bit of you.
and suddenly you look at
the tea getting cold
and you complain
how much effort it takes to prepare morning tea.

Then only I will understand,
how worthy my madness is
about you."

To My Honeylips...

2009-09-11T17:44:00.013+05:30

If one day you feel like crying,Call me. I dont promise you that, I will make you laugh. But I will cry even before you will.
If one day you dont want to listen to anybody, call me. I promise to be very quiet. And I'll turn into an Ear.
But... If one day you call and there is no answer. Get some time to see me. Perhaps I need you.
And I know, I will not find you there;as I have always done.
But you know my Honeylips, this will not refrain me from loving you. I can hold my emotions... but just tell me how can I defy the instinct. Yes... loving you has become my instinct.
I don't know why I feel like keeping the silence when I am with you... alone. All alone. And I just love to keep looking your face.

I get a feeling I can't explain
whenever your eyes meet mine
My heart spins in circles
and I lose all space and time

And now that we're standing face to face
something tells me it's gonna be OK
that I'm ready to fall in love tonight
ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever
but baby I'll try
'Coz I'm ready to fall in love tonight

I know you've been watching
choosing the moment
I've been dreaming of that day
no one before you has gotten to me this way

And now that we're standing face to face
something that I need to say
and I'm ready to fall in love tonite
ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
'Coz I'm ready to fall in love tonight

Nothing is certain
this I know
wherever we're heading
I'm ready to go

I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
cuz I'm ready to fall in love tonight
yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight

Kuchh iss tarah...

2009-08-07T10:23:00.014+05:30

There are times when somebody, swifter than the thoughts runs in your veins alongwith the blood. Someone lighter than the air, comes into your arms and want to roam around. Someone smells prettier than the best smell and you want to dive your nose into that black straight silk and wish you never wake up. You empty yourself every night with her. But in the morning, you find yourself filled with her again. She becomes the first thought of the day when you open your eyes. And then you close your eyes again, just to recall the intimate moments that you spent with her. Holding her hands or looking into her eyes or hugging her or kissing her like the craziest person in the whole solar system.

If you loved her in that way, then how can you see her even a little bit of pain, wheather it be physical or psychological. To get her out of pain what will you do?? You will do whatever you can. And when human efforts are not enough, they do not seem to be working then?? Sometimes the bloody norms come in between and you can't do anything you plan for. You rush to some supernatural entity, with the plea to get her out of that grief.

And you wish if her all pains are awarded to you, and you accept them all with a big Thank to Him.

I was listening to a song that I like very much. Sung by great Pakistani singer Atif Aslam. And the feelings of mine.

kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...

kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...

kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de..........

kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...

tu har ghadi har waqt mere saath raha hain...
haan ye jism kabhi door kabhi paas raha hain...
jo bhi ghum hain ye tere unhe tu mera pata de...

kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...

mujhko to tere chehare pe ye ghum nahi jhachta
jaayiz nahi lagta mujhe ghum se tera rishta
sun meri guzarish ise chehare se hata de

sun meri guzarish ise chehare se hata de

kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...

[English translation with my best efforts...]

Let your eyelashes meet mine in the way,
That all your teardrops come on my eyes

You have been with me, all moments, in all time
Yes, this body has sometimes been far, sometimes near

Whatever sadness you have, give them my address
I don't like the sorrow on your face

I don't feel that the sadness on your face is justified
Listen to my request, just eliminate them from your face.

Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Judy Garland

2009-07-03T21:13:00.015+05:30

"Over the Rainbow" (often referred to as "Somewhere Over the Rainbow") is a classic ballad song with music by Harold Arlen and lyrics by E.Y. Harburg. It was written for the movie The Wizard of Oz, and was sung by Judy Garland in that movie.

This movie and the song has been a legacy... a milestone and touching everyone's softest corner of the heart.

In the film, part of the song is played by the MGM orchestra over the opening credits. about 20 minutes later, Garland, in the role of Dorothy, sings Over the Rainbow after unsuccessfully trying to get her aunt and uncle to listen to her regarding an unpleasant incident involving Dorothy's dog Toto and the nasty spinster Miss Gulch, whom Toto bit after she struck him with a rake. Dorothy's Aunt Em tells her to "find a place where you won't get yourself into any trouble", prompting the girl to walk off by herself and sing the song.

It is the bravity to dream... innocent dreams, Hopes[against all the hopes], desire to steal some time from the world. The smell that passes through you like a wave, the eyes that peeps into your soul and the touch that penetrates your body and reaches to your bones. The time to be what you are, the time to be happy, the time to have the complete tranquility, the time to be ecstactic. The time when the time falls short... always, the time the universe moves faster and you feel static... but you live your life in that moment... in that minute. And may be the place that offers that moment is "SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW".

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?

I'm easy - Keith Carradine from Robert Altman's Nashville 1975

2009-05-07T19:05:00.015+05:30

Things visible on the surface are not the same at the base. And many times the opposite is also true. And when it comes to movies, who else can depict it better than Robert Altman. Released in 1975, directed by Robert Altman, Nashville is a musical film. A winner of many awards, selected for preservation in the United States National Film Registry, Nashville is generally considered to be one of Altman's best films. The film revolves around 24 main characters with many parallel storylines and strong symphony. It is also a window for contemporary American country music.

For me, the best part is the song written, composed and sung by Keith Carradine which won him the Oscar for Best Original Song for writing the tune. I found the song on youtube. Listened. Sung along. And felt. Just compare it with "jai Ho". It is fully composed on guitar only. No huge orchestra. Yes, simplicity has its own Prowess. And look at the lyrics and young dashing Keith Carradine himself on the screen.

It's not my way to love you just when no one's lookin'/
It's not my way to take your hand if I'm not sure/
It's not my way to let you see what's goin' on inside of me/
When it's a love you won't be needing if you're not free/
Please stop pullin' at my sleeve if you're just playin'/
If you won't take the things you make me wanna give/
I never cared too much for games and this one's drivin' me insane/
You're not half as free to wander as you claim/
But I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy.

Give the word I'll play your game as though that's how it oughta be/
Because I'm easy/
Don't lead me on if there's nowhere for you to take me/
If lovin' you would have to be a sometime thing/
I can't put bars on my insides/
My love is somethin' I can't hide/
It still hurts when I recall the times I've tried/
But I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy.

Take my hand and pull me down/
I won't put up any fight because I'm easy/
Don't do me favors let me watch you from a distance/
'Cause when you're near I find it hard to keep my head/
And when your eyes throw light at mine it's enough to change my mind/
Make me leave my cautious words and ways behind/
That's why I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy.

Say you want me I'll come runnin' without takin'time to think/
Because I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy/
Take my hand and pull me down/
I won't put up any fight/
Because I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy/
Give the word I'll play your game as though that's how it oughta be/
Because I'm easy.

I saw you for infinite times / Gaurav

2009-01-12T13:45:00.015+05:30

I saw you for infinite times,
But the eyes are not satisfied.

My heart has limits but your beauty has not,
So I couldn't accommodate the later.
The snake charmer himself was charmed
Water was in subconscious with the beauty of fish.

I licked the dew drops on the leaves
and grass top too...
But there was a thirst for another drop
Which never ended.

I saw you for infinite times,
But the eyes are not satisfied.

Words, beauty, essence, smell...
Everything is spread in you...
In your each atom.

Your shyness was the...
Gloden ray of evening...
I saw them when they were
Scattering over the hills and
Illuminating them.

I saw you for infinite times,
But the eyes are not satisfied.

i am unable to

Extinction / Gaurav

2009-01-02T11:08:00.010+05:30

Looking continuously from
the surface of water,
The spots in your eyes,
make eddies inside me
And that water is nothing but
a Sad morning
Spread over the sand of sky.

Now when I am totally confused
Amidst all the eddies and all the spots
autumn has occupied all
the brances on the tree
no leaf is there...
And this clumsy morning.

Watered eyes like a fish
dust of Setting sun
you have another name - Flame
Before writing it
It sets me on fire everytime and
it pours my ashes into the
Endless river of sand.

And a road runs silently beside me to that infinity...

A foggy morning is your name too,
You are a pearl sown deep inside my Soul,
There is no face of tears,
And no face of milky wind.

Loving you is like
Looking at myself...
In the mirrors of dew drops...
Residing on the top of grasses...
When the sun will come up...
My existance will be extinguished...
By the sun rays...
With the dew drops.

My Incompleteness / Gaurav

2008-12-31T12:31:00.018+05:30

Amidst of waving curtains of fog and darkness,
The memory is ticking,
All these days have been absorbed into the cold walls,
You always escape from my hug,
I wake up in unconciousness,
And I try to cover you with my incompleteness.

It has always been tough for me
To break the talisman of your breathe
And cross that cloud.
I am freezed
In this flying smoke
Feeling cursed...
I want to sway my throbs into the wind...
But I know where my borders are.
My hands can't reach yours...

And I'll be getting holes after holes
Somewhere on left side of my chest.
And you will keep spreading the rains
somewhere else.
But amidst of that rain if you have time,
Just have a look on the shadow...
that will be created on
The surface of water that you will pour...
It will swing at the tunes of your
Innocent laugh.

I'll keep dying
in small installments,
This is the way life kills...
Death is so innocent...
Death is just...
It kills once only... and everyone.
I will drown myself with some hope
And I'll be finished
If you will ever ask me
To vacate this land of incompleteness.

A Kiss is a Terrible Thing to Waste / Meat Loaf

2008-12-29T14:33:00.012+05:30

If you listen, to the night
You can hear the darkness call
I can barely stand to wait
I can barely stand at all
C’mon closer to me now
It’s like we’re sharing the same skin
We gotta get out of this jail
We gotta let the future in
So many things in your life
That your bound to regret
Why didn’t I do that?
Why didn’t I do this?
So many chances you lost
That you’ll never forget
Why didn’t I make it?
Why didn’t I take it right there?
The loneliest words you’ll ever know
If only-if only it was so
The emptiest words that there’ll ever be:
It could have been me. it could have been me
The loneliest words you’ll ever know
If only-if only it was so
The emptiest words that there’ll ever be:
It could have been me. it could have been me
You’ll have to pay for it later
If you don’t get it when it’s going for free
Believe me -! believe me -!

A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
It’s something that’s always been so
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste

And one of these nights
You’re gonna show me that you already know
There’s a feast waiting for you
And you’ve never even gotten a taste
It’s later than you think and
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste!
You shouldn’t tremble when we touch
There’s no reason for these fears
It’s a promise that was made
We’ve been promised this for years
I wanna show you it all
What to do and where and how!
Cause we’ll never be as young as we are right now
We’ll never be as young as we are right now!

So many cries in the night
That you try to ignore
Why didn’t I do this?
Why didn’t I do that?
So many unanswered prayers
So many unopened doors
Why didn’t I take it?
Why didn’t I make it come true?
The loneliest words you’ll ever know:
If only - if only it was so
The emptiest words that there’ll ever be:
It could have been me
It could have been me
The loneliest words you’ll ever- know:
If only - if only it was so
The emptiest words that there’ll ever be:
It could have been me
It could have been me
You’ll have to pay for it later:
If you don’t get it when it’s going for free!
Believe me! believe me, believe me!

A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
It’s something that has always been so
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste

And one of these nights
I’m gonna show you that you already know...
There’s a feast waiting for you
And you’ve never even gotten a taste
It’s later than, you think and
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste!
There’s a feast waiting for you
And you’ve never even gotten a taste
It’s later than you think and
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste!

Tyre tracks and broken hearts
That’s all we’re leaving behind!
It doesn’t matter what we’re losing
It only matters what we’re going to find!
Tyre tracks and broken hearts
That’s all we’re leaving behind!
It doesn’t matter what we’re losing
It only matters what we’re going to find!
Tyre tracks and broken hearts
That’s all we’re leaving behind!
It doesn’t matter what we’re losing
It only matters what we’re going to find!
Tyre tracks and broken hearts
That’s all we’re leaving behind!
It doesn’t matter what we’re losing
It only matters what we’re going to find!
There’s a feast waiting for you
And you’ve never even gotten a taste
It’s later than you think and
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste

Can I Touch You There... - Michael Bolton

2008-12-27T15:18:00.004+05:30

Baby, show me what you feel
Come to me, show me somethin' real
I need to know, I need you completely
(closer, baby, closer) Come on closer, baby (let's begin)
Love is takin' over, gotta let it in
Ooh and I need to feel the heart of you
I need to reach the very deepest part of you

Chorus:
Can I touch you there, touch you deep inside
Can I touch your heart, the way you're touchin' mine
Can I touch you there, touch you deep within, oh
Can I touch you there, can I touch you oh...(there)

Oooh Baby, tell me with your eyes
Tell me every secret, darlin'
Every deep desire, till you and I
Are makin' love completely
(closer,baby, closer) come on closer, baby,
(can't be close enough)
I can't help the way I hold you
I just hunger for your love
Oooh and I need to feel the heart of you
I need to reach the deepest part of you

Chorus:

All I wanna dois touch you, baby
Touch you very soul insideof you
Oooh and I need to feel the heart of you
I need to reach the very deepest part of you
Oh, let me be the one to show you
Just what love can do
Come on, baby, come on

Chorus

SPIRAL STARECASE / MORE TODAY THAN YESTERDAY

2008-12-22T18:40:00.008+05:30

I don't remember what day it was
I didn't notice what time it was
All I know is that I fell in love with you
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Every day's a new day in love with you
With each day comes a new way of loving you
Every time I kiss your lips my mind starts to wander
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But, darling, not as much as tomorrow

Tomorrow's date means springtime's just a day away
Cupid, we don't need ya now, be on your way
I thank the lord for love like ours that grows ever stronger
And I always will be true
I know you feel the same way too

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But only half as much as tomorrow

To... I don't know.....

2008-11-20T14:52:00.014+05:30

Deep eyes so full of life,
A wonder all of their own
So beautiful and precious
Oh!!! to see those eyes smile
Such a beautiful sight
How can I dare to look into those eyes
When I look into them
A kind of peace comes over me
And I try to know
Something about this pair of crystal balls,
that reside just below your eyebrows,
I want to measure the limits of these limitless eyes,
But I am not so brave like Christopher Columbus,
Neither I have Santa Maria,
the ship on which Columbus tried to measure the Sea...
So I've failed always..
Beautiful Crystal eyes
Always haunting me...
teasing me
Reminding me of what I want...
can't have
Why do they haunt me so...
When will I be free of them
Constantly held captive by
those most beautiful creations of Almighty God,
Beautiful eyes
Always there -
A reminder of what I want...can't have
A reminder of...my checks...
How human I am with all my limitations...
Such beautiful Deep eyes
Beautiful Your eyes...

LAST NIGHT

2008-08-28T11:54:00.010+05:30

Last night
dewdrops fell
in a slow mist
on the closed lips
of the delicate buds.

In the intimate
bed of flowers,
under the scarf
of the blue night,
the dewdrops gave wings
to fairy tales.
A pair of twin souls
swimming in the gentle
chaos of the heart,
weighing the sky
on their delicate wings.
Last night,
it was a full moon.

Last night,
dreams were luminous.

Last night,
I was with you...
in my dreams....in my thoughts.....in my subconscious.

Lost Memories

2008-07-21T13:44:00.008+05:30

I was deranged to think you still could love me
I was mad to think you’d still want me
What am I but a lost memory to you?

My credulity that it was meant to be
I locked it down and didn’t set it free
What am I but a lost memory to you?

I never would have believed you would hate me
But now you show that harsh emotion clearly
What am I but a lost memory to you?

The stories I give you have no credibility
So now I must live with this humility
What am I but a lost memory to you?

I wish I had some way to make you believe me
I wish I was able to help you find your memory
What am I but a lost memory to you?

There must be a way to detach my heart from thee,
This isn’t the way that it is supposed to be
What am I but a lost memory to you?

I assume the reason is that I am not me lovely
Oh, I wish it was only my love you could see
What am I but a lost memory to you?

All the days were joyous when you loved me
But now I am devoid of your love and I’m lonely
What am I but a lost memory to you?

To love you my heart has always been my fee
But now you forgot that only you can set it free
What am I but a lost memory to you?

It may be impossible to find your old memory
But maybe you can deice your heart for me.
I can be more than a lost memory to you

Is there a way to cycle back to the old days of “We?”
What an incredulously mad idea, you don’t love me
What am I but a lost memory to you?

I must deflate all of these silly dreams quickly
Dispose of them before I am driven crazy
Why am I a lost memory to you?

Now I must deploy to a sad world without thee
And try, like you, to forget those happy memories
I will always be a lost memory to you

Mirage

2008-05-02T09:10:00.009+05:30

I dance to the illusive mirages
As i trudge on the desert sands
My throat is dry
Dry like these desert sands
In this mirrors of mirage

Mirages illude me
Like a dream
I feel interned in this heat
The desert....
Trackless..
Grim and grotesque
I feel desolate

But like a white rose
Amidst blackjacks
A refuge emerges
In this mirrors of mirage

Lord...
Make the deceptive mirages
Vanish like dust in the wind
Let them perish
In this desert sands
This mirrors and mirages

The mirrors know me
The mirage knows deception only
In this confusing pull
Of mirrors of mirage

Trepidations fill my heart
Tremors shake my tired limbs
Terror terrorizes my whole being
This feeling of confusion and uncertainity
In this mirrors of mirage

Serpents hiss with sworn severity
This mirages-deceptive even to them
The desert harsh and horrendous
They hiss with foreboding relentlessness
In this mirrors of mirage

Behold....
Acacia trees everywhere
Here and there
Water...
Here and there
In this mirrors of mirage

By the acacia trees
Love grows and glows
Like psychedellic lights
In this mirages

The water humms...
Sottovace...
Of the conquered heart..
In this mirrors of mirage.

Ode to your beauty / Pablo Neruda

2008-02-28T17:07:00.009+05:30

With chaste heart, and pure
eyes
I celebrate you, my beauty,
restraining my blood
so that the line
surges and follows
your contour,
and you bed yourself in my verse,
as in woodland, or wave-spume:
earth’s perfume,
sea’s music.

Nakedly beautiful,
whether it is your feet, arching
at a primal touch
of sound or breeze,
or your ears,
tiny spiral shells
from the splendour of America’s oceans.
Your breasts also,
of equal fullness, overflowing
with the living light
and, yes,
winged
your eyelids of silken corn
that disclose
or enclose
the deep twin landscapes of your eyes.

The line of your back
separating you
falls away into paler regions
then surges
to the smooth hemispheres
of an apple,
and goes splitting
your loveliness
into two pillars
of burnt gold, pure alabaster,
to be lost in the twin clusters of your feet,
from which, once more, lifts and takes fire
the double tree of your symmetry:
flower of fire, open circle of candles,
swollen fruit raised
over the meeting of earth and ocean.

Your body – from what substances
agate, quartz, ears of wheat,
did it flow, was it gathered,
rising like bread
in the warmth,
and signalling hills
silvered,
valleys of a single petal, sweetnesses
of velvet depth,
until the pure, fine, form of woman
thickened
and rested there?

It is not so much light that falls
over the world
extended by your body
its suffocating snow,
as brightness, pouring itself out of you,
as if you were
burning inside.

Under your skin the moon is alive.

Love grew up in me

2008-02-08T09:00:00.006+05:30

Love grew up in me
like the moon between two palm-trees
that have never embraced each other.

The intimate murmur of two bodies
made the cooing the sea-swell brings,
but the voice and throat go stiffed,
the lips turned to stone.

So... I am silent.

The longing to encircle you
keeps me alive,
and my arms’ desire to reach out
and grasp you hard...

So hard and so close that we can exchange our heartbeats.

Love and the moon passed
and devoured my lonely body.
And I am the ghost who searches
for you and utters your name in dreams

from far... So far that you can't hear...

Whisper of Heart......Goodbye Again / John Denver

2008-02-05T09:53:00.006+05:30

Today I am going to post a song by John Denver, the following composition makes me feel if you want to go away from someone, but that person constantly comes to you... in thoughts... in dreams... you recall the time spent with her and you unconsciously get surprised if someone utters her name... now I can recall a couple of lines from a great poet before I go to the composition of John Denever. The couplet is like,

Bechain wo hi nahi, bequaraar mai bhi hoon,
aur zabaan kehti hai k saaraa kasoor usaka thaa,
zamiir kehtaa hai k zimmedaar mai bhi hoon.

[ Not only that person is restless, I also am equally desperate. And the tongue says that she/he is the guilty. But the heart says that I also am responsible.]

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It’s five o’clock this morning, and the sun is on the rise
There’s frosting on the window pane, and sorrow in your eyes
The stars are fading quietly, the night is nearly gone
And so you turn away from me, and tears begin to come

And it’s goodbye again, I’m sorry to be leavin’ you
Goodbye again, as if you didn’t know
It’s goodbye again, and I wish you could tell me
Why do we always fight when I have to go

It seems a shame to leave you now, the days are soft and warm
I long to lay me down again, to hold you in my arms
I long to kiss the tears away, give you back the smile
Other voices beckon me, to go a little while

And it’s goodbye again, I’m sorry to be leavin’ you
Goodbye again, as if you didn’t know
It’s goodbye again, and I wish you could tell me
Why do we always fight when I have to go

Have to go and see some friends of mine, some that I don’t know
Some who aren’t familiar with my name,
It’s something that’s inside of me not hard to understand
It’s anyone who listens to me sing

And if your hours are empty now, who am I to blame
You think if I were always here, our love would be the same
As it is the time we have, is worth the time alone
And lying by your side, the greatest peace I’ve ever known

But it’s goodbye again, I’m sorry to be leavin’ you
Goodbye again, as if you didn’t know
It’s goodbye again, and I wish you could tell me
Why do we always fight when I have to go

Looking at a picture

2008-01-11T09:14:00.002+05:30

Looking at a picture
that was once colorful,
now turns to grey.
The faces that used
to smile, turned away.
The arms that held one-another
fell at each others side.
My memories that held
this photo togther dies.
The feeling of this picture
was a joy but now
tears fill My eyes.
Always,
Everything that has a begining has an end.
These moments we spend.
The secrets that are in
me are deep.
The secrets
is what they strive to keep.
Now as they sleep.
I keep this photo and burn it into my head and my Heart
The memories in these
photo are now dead.
The names of her
now decay...but I want to always remember...
My Lord!!! Will you bless me with this boon??
Unike the momories in her minds blew away....
And she made me the forgotten Past.
My Lord!!!
You made me to forget all the
good and bad things...
But I want to posses this memory
as the most prized possession...
My Lord!!! Will you bless me with this boon??
please bless me...

I was looking at a photo

2008-01-11T08:51:00.000+05:30

I was looking at a photo,
of my friend today,
Her beauty shines out,
in every way,
Those eyes
that show her pure soul
Nose and mouth
there’s beauty in it all
That smile that
takes my heart away...
I love her more
each and every day
I know we will
never be a part
She has my soul
she holds my heart
She takes me to
places no other could
She is kind... gentle... loving and good
I thought I was loosing her some days ago
But I pray to God she is still alive
No other would ever take her place
Looking at the photo such a lovely face

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight \ Pablo Neruda

2007-12-10T15:53:00.004+05:30

Today I am recalling Pablo Neruda. A great poet....a great lover and a great fighter.Kudos. No more words for him. Just have a dip into his words.
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I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,
and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."

The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
[I feel it... greater chances are I am wrong]

On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her.
How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.

To hear the immense night, more immense without her.
And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.

What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.
The night is full of stars and she is not with me.

That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.
My soul is lost without her.

As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.
My heart searches for her and she is not with me.

The same night that whitens the same trees.
We, we who were, we are the same no longer.

I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.
My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.

Someone else's. She will be someone else's.
As she once belonged to my kisses.
Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.
Love is so short and oblivion so long.

Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,
my soul is lost without her.

Although this may be the last pain she causes me,
and this may be the last poem I write for her.

Sacrifice \ Elton John

2007-12-07T13:42:00.006+05:30

Once I heard a song by legendry Elton John. Long back. I can't recall even the year.

Just see the video and listen to the song. Both complement each other. And in between...... comes Elton....like someone speaking the language of Time.......dressed like an Irish playing a Bagpiper..... A great song by a Great Artist.
Released in November 1989, Sacrifice only managed to reach number 55 in the charts. However, the song was re-released in June 1990, with proceeds going to several AIDS charities. And rest is the history.

It makes you feel something deep inside your heart. If your heart aches....if you feel your 'ego' is pulling you away from your beloved one......then this song may be an ice on the blister. May be it will kindle the love for him/her.
See the video and listen to the song........ a really RARE combination.

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Music by Elton John
Lyrics by Bernie Taupin
Album: Sleeping with the past

It’s a human sign
When things go wrong
When the scent of her lingers
And temptation’s strong

Into the boundary
Of each married man
Sweet deceit comes calling
And negativity lands

Cold cold heart
Hard done by you
Some things look better baby
Just passing through

And it’s no sacrifice
Just a simple word
It’s two hearts living
In two separate worlds
But it’s no sacrifice
No sacrifice
It’s no sacrifice at all

Mutual misunderstanding
After the fact
Sensitivity builds a prison
In the final act

We lose direction
No stone unturned
No tears to damn you
When jealousy burns

Colourblind / Darius.....

2007-12-05T12:31:00.004+05:30

Today I was surfing the net and suddenly came across a video of one of my favourite songs in English. My affair with this song goes a bit back. When for the first time, I heard this song I was a teenaged guy..... and had some natural feelings induced by age.....yup...the scent of first night of universe :-) . And I found this song quite soothing that feeling. I always use to dream that 'she' is somewhere and I meet her. There was so much fog condensed at her face that I couldn't see her face. But I was able to recall her enthralling eyes, captivating lips, bewitching smell and.......................and then I was unable to meet her in this physical world.............and I couldn't see any other girl...............................I think I am crossing the limits...............

Here I am sharing that song's video and the lyrics. Please bear it........

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Colourblind

Feelin’ blue, while I’m trying to forget the feeling that I miss you
Feelin’ green, when the jealousy swells and it won’t go away in dreams

Feelin’ yellow, I’m confused inside
A little hazy but mellow when I feel your eyes on me

Feelin’ fine! sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

Oh oh

Nobody told me you’d feel so good
Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You’re the light, you’re the light
When I close my eyes
I’m colour blind

You make me colour blind

Feelin’ red, when you spend all your time with your friends and not me instead
Feelin’ black, when I think about all the things that I feel I lack

Feelin’ jaded, when it’s not gone right
All the colours have faded, then I feel your eyes on me

Feelin’ fine! sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

Mm mm

Nobody told me you’d feel so good
Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You’re the light, you’re the light
When I close my eyes
I’m colour blind

You make me colour blind

Blinded by the light you shine, the colours fade completely
Blinded by you every time, I feel your smile defeat me

I’m colour blind
I just can’t deny this feeling

Nobody told me you’d feel so good
Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You’re the light, you’re the light
When I close my eyes
I’m colour blind

Nobody told me you’d feel so good
Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You’re the light, you’re the light
When I close my eyes
I’m colour blind

You make me colour blind

I’m colour blind

Some Unsung Melodies

2007-10-17T13:08:00.005+05:30

Every night,
when the silence flows on the streets,
the darkness swears to freeze the world,
the stars burn their blood to bring light…........
these words get dropped out off my pen.

Every moment I need you,
And I want to say...................... no;
I want to whisper,
whisper in your ear.

And yes,
I want to peep…
peep into your eyes…
and whisper…those unsung melodies of my heart,
that my heart has possessed for so............... long.

I,
want to uncover-
the torn canvas of my heart,
that depicts the picture
of my soul.

I will not ask you,
to face the scorching sun with me,
because I know,
it is simply a Mirage, that I have run after so far.

I just want to hold............
hold your hands and walk,
walk along with you,
through this night.

I want to walk with you,
far, far from this world,
far from all the pains, satires, frustrations, chaos
and fragile ecstasy and joys, too.

When you are not with me,
and I know we can never be together,
I want to Sway,
Sway in the wind- the most valuable gems of my heart.

With the hope that,
the wind will shoulder
all my messages,
well to you.

Even I hear
some faint whispers,
whispers in the wind,
and I easily recognize-
It's you,
willing to say something.
But I can't understand
what do you want to say.

Before meeting you,
I was biting the dust,
You taught me to live, to breathe, to dream and as you departed,
now I am biting the bullet.
My friend!
please come to me,
if possible for once
and hold my hands
and walk along with me…
just a full night......all the night.......just one night......this
night......
and I will not ask for anything
from my life- ever after.

Just, walk along with me.....
I want to whisper......
Whisper in the wind................

Once............and for once only....................

This night...........one night....................

When all the lights are sleeping......