Thursday, April 18, 2013
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Prices were right
Friday, April 29, 2011
Another wild dream

It’s a lazy Saturday morning. It is sunny and bright outside our room. Somebody knocks at the door. You get out of the bed to check. You are wearing a white sleeveless vest and underpants and then put on a Capri. Your hair is untied, filling the room with your fragrance.
The moment you open the door, our son comes in running and leaps into the bed and says, “Good morning daddy!!!”.
“Good morning tiger!!!”, is my reply.
You complain, “Gentlemen! There is somebody else is in the room, too.”
Ignoring you, he whispers in my ears, “Daddy, I don’t want to go to school.”
“And the reason is??”, I reply in interrogative.
“Don’t speak so loud, mama is here. I want to play the game that we bought yesterday. I can’t wait till evening.”
“Ok, let me try” , I said and turn my face towards you. You are making a knot of your hair.
“You know, sweetie, I feel, we are not giving enough time to our son. What if he bunks school today? We’ll have the whole day together, what you say??”
You are the discipline keeper of the family and I am the lenient one, who loves to do small naughty acts with the kid. The acts that he missed in his childhood and wants to relive his most precious time with his son.
“No way!!! Nobody is skipping the school. We have Sunday to spend together”, you say and give him a toothbrush with toothpaste on it.
We have lost the very first battle of the day to you.
Our son is furious. I take him in my lap and go to the washbasin, you follow us and say, “I’ve been watching you, you are getting out of control, I don’t like you making faces every day.”
He doesn’t know that you are following us, our son says in rage, “Daddy! Mama itna gussa kyu karati hai? Aapko aur koi ladki nahi mili thi shadi karne ko? Bas yahi mama hi mili thee? ”
The moment you hear his words, you break out laughing. You give him a kiss on his cheek and hug him tight from behind.
His anger is not subdued and he says,” Ab maar hi daalogi kya?”
“Haan”, is your reply and you give him another hug followed by a kiss.
I pretend to be jealous and I say, “Ham par to kabhi itna pyar nahi aataa aapko. Junior pe sara pyar deti hain. Ab samjha hamare hisse ka pyaar jataa kahan hai."
“Senior had his quota last night. And by the way he is becoming more demanding and wilder every day, I’ll have to do something”, you warn me.
“You don’t need to do anything, just stop becoming more beautiful with every passing day and thanks for giving me the most amazing kid of the world. I am indebted with my life to you”, is the thought that comes into my mind. And I smile to myself.
I look at you and my son, and challenge the whole world ‘is there any better family on the face of earth??’ And I am the one who wins the challenge every single morning, because I know the answer. God, please please shield my family from all the evils. Amen.
[I woke up sweating, I'm thirsty. I don't want to lose even a single bit of this dream. I am writing it and it is 4 in the morning. What a way to start a day. A sleepless night.]
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Little Bit More / Dr Hook

In my dreams you wear nothing but these boots. And I am lost in your eyes. I wish I never see the morning sun with red aura. I want this night to last forever. You are tired and I relax you. I try to loosen your stiff muscles. I rub your shoulder not because you need my assistance, but because I want to steal some air getting filtered through your hair and smelling like heaven. Don’t close your eyes, the sky will fall short of black color and the dawn will paint the sky with white.
When your body's had enough of me
And I'm layin' flat out on the floor
When you think I've loved you all I can
I'm gonna love you a little bit more
Come on over here and lay by my side
I've got to be touchin' you
Let me rub your tired shoulders
The way I used to do
Look into my eyes and give me that smile
The one that always turns me on
And let me take your hair down
'Cause we're stayin' up to greet the sun
And when your body's had enough of me
And I'm layin' flat out on the floor
When you think I've loved you all I can
I'm gonna love you a little bit more
Got to say a few things that have been on my mind
And you know where my mind has been
I guess I learned my lessons
And now's the time to begin
So if you're feelin alright and you're ready for me
I know that I'm ready for you
We better get it on now
'Cause we got a whole life to live through
And when your body's had enough of me
And I'm layin' flat on the floor
When you think I've loved you all I can
I'm gonna love you a little bit more
And when your body's had enough of me
And I'm layin' flat out on the floor
Monday, March 14, 2011
All I want / Joni Mitchell
Last night heard Joni Mitchell with the song ‘All I Want’. A good song. Especially a song sounds good if it sings out our heart. What else can I say? Just enjoy the song.
I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Traveling, traveling, traveling
Looking for something, what can it be
Oh I hate you some, I hate you some
I love you some
Oh I love you when I forget about me
I want to be strong I want to laugh along
I want to belong to the living
Alive, alive, I want to get up and jive
I want to wreck my stockings in some juke box dive
Do you want - do you want - do you want
To dance with me baby
Do you want to take a chance
On maybe finding some sweet romance with me baby
Well, come on
All I really really want our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you too
All I really really want our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you
I want to talk to you, I want to shampoo you
I want to renew you again and again
Applause, applause - life is our cause
When I think of your kisses
My mind see-saws
Do you see - do you see - do you see
How you hurt me baby
So I hurt you too
Then we both get so blue
I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Looking for the key to set me free
Oh the jealousy, the greed is the unraveling
It's the unraveling
And it undoes all the joy that could be
I want to have fun, I want to shine like the sun
I want to be the one that you want to see
I want to knit you a sweater
Want to write you a love letter
I want to make you feel better
I want to make you feel free
Hmm, Hmm, Hmm, Hmm,
Want to make you feel free
I want to make you feel free
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Rona Chod Diya
[There is no inherent meaning. Just a song that I liked.]
Teri batoon nay dil torra
To nay dekha or moun morra
Badal garja thorra thorra
Teri batoon nay dil torra
To nay dekha or moun morra
Badal garja thorra thorra
Pani barsa ye dil tarsa
Par jab beta thorra arsa
Main nay rona chor dia
Guzray thay jin say rastay wahi
Anjana hay ban gaien
Karni thi tujh say baat ankahi
Shayed chupsi hay sahi
Halchal main hay sagar sabhi
Sakin hay kuch junbish nahi
Yoheen guzray hay zindagi
Jeetay koi koi
App to bas main aik khabbar hoon
Gardish main hoon rahguzar hoon
Toofaan hoon main tera darr hoon
Chal pari hay kal ki kohi
Himaat hay to rokay koi
Main nay rona chorr dia
Main nay rona chorr dia…
Girtay patoon nay aas hay bhari
Kal na ayegi kabhi
Bandho dharas ab waqt hay yahi
Kar guzro sab kuch abhi
Gardish main hay mousm sabhi
Theeri nahi rokay nahi
Rasm-e-dunia hay to yahi
Pohnchay koi koi
Teri batoon nay dil torra
To nay dekha or moun morra
Badal garja thorra thorra
Pani barsa ye dil tarsa
Par jab beta thorra arsa
Main nay rona chor dia..
Main nay rona chor dia…
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Your Booty.... / Gaurav
On the barren lands of my thoughts,
You walk barefoot…
Everyday you get blisters on your feet,
And you fight everyday with the animal inside me,
But I never saw the pain on your face.
The bush with thrones that lies between,
The difference of our decisions,
You get stuck between them,
You fall in the attempt to move ahead,
But I never saw the pain on your face.
And I am the silent one,
No, the dumb one.
I see everything - I feel everything,
But I can’t say the word that I always want to say,
That you deserve more than everything in the world,
That is not a reward but the booty of the Victor….
“THANK YOU”
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Last Monday
Last Monday, when you and me,
Were together,
And the Sun was sliding from the hill,
A watch was tied to your wrist,
Few minutes just slipped from it.
I picked up those minutes and
kept them in my pocket,
I tried that you didn’t see it.
You are with your parents,
Today when I am away from you,
I wander with these minutes with me.
In the city buses, on the roads,
In my office staircase.
I insert my hand into pocket frequently after
Some intervals,
Just to assure myself that
I didn’t drop any one of them,
Or none of them escaped from my possession
All these moments sound like the coins,
They don’t sound like ticking of watches,
They always remind me of their presence.
And their value.
I smell them everyday,
They are the biggest reason behind
My waking up every morning…..
Friday, May 28, 2010
Hungry Eyes
My head to have the feeling of you,
lips to kiss you,
nose to have smell of you,
hands to have one hug of yours when I try to dissolve you into me,
chest is waiting to receive another passionate kiss,
Who is not dying? Who is not starving?
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Just a request

Hey you... allow me to have just one night when you do not come to my dreams and let me sleep. I am having tough time. I can't handle all the challenges together. I am not a superman. Don’t you have something else to do? I have spent enough nights sleepless. I can’t tolerate more. I have my own limitations. My own boundaries. I am getting tired. I am too human; I have many commitments to keep. Just allow me some nights without you. Without your fragrance, without your glow, without your smell.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Survival Search

It will happen for a while...
The voice full of life
will come for a second,
will cross by your side
and your chest will be wrapped in fire
you will just sigh.
your will remember the time passed by.
I go breathless like a patient of asthama.
Searching for my life in the air.
And I find myself denied.
My soul whispers and
complains
I try my best to console it,
I am denied..my buddy...
it is not my fault
I am forbidden to call my life
My life is dissoved into the air.
However strong I cough...
however I try to gasp the maximum air I can...
I will choke
I don't know which country you live...
the country is out of my reach...
the smell of the air that comes filtered of your hair...
with the hope of my life...
you sing in the language unknown...
but all the songs are tangled in your
beautiful body and your soul...
Now I have only one song in my memory
and that is your laugh in never
dying tune of fifth note of music.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Random Contours/ Gaurav

then lost in whose words I,
forget to close the running tap
when I shave.
whose warm smell fills my cold room,
and I run searching for
lighted up incense Stick.
Whose breathes slide on my chest,
and whose dew drops make my cheeks wet?
You can fool others,
but not me,
I know,
you live here only,
with me in my room.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Adieu / Gaurav

tightly to my heart
I have been sad for ages.
You shocked me every time,
and I devastated myself.
I sighed and remembered you,
Whenever I saw any silken dress.
And when close to my heart,
there is a lonely sad cloud,
of sorrow,
you have come with the burning cheeks,
to lit up the dead lamps.
My sweetheart,
this shout of renewal of love,
is not good for my frustrated life,
the flowers once I selected for your feet,
I don't have even their bleak picture in my mind.
Just a accumulated sadness has covered
my heart and soul
Inside me there is no hope.
My helpless life has been
pressed under the excessive
burden o frustration.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
To My AGAPE..../Gaurav
Where have you been for so many days? Seems so busy... really??? So busy that even you don't have time to come to my dreams and make my night sleepless. Even I wonder. How was I able not to remember you, recall the time spent with you. Last night I was thinking about it only. And last night I penned down my fantasy that I have for so long. May be this will set you angry... hope you will forgive me as you have always done.
"When I wake up
and find your laughing wet face
The dew drops raining from your hair
kiss my cheeks
and the creases on the bed are glowing like you
and the pillow smelling like your hair.
And I dive deep into the pillow to have a bit of you.
and suddenly you look at
the tea getting cold
and you complain
how much effort it takes to prepare morning tea.
Then only I will understand,
how worthy my madness is
about you."
Friday, September 11, 2009
To My Honeylips...
If one day you dont want to listen to anybody, call me. I promise to be very quiet. And I'll turn into an Ear.
But... If one day you call and there is no answer. Get some time to see me. Perhaps I need you.
And I know, I will not find you there;as I have always done.
But you know my Honeylips, this will not refrain me from loving you. I can hold my emotions... but just tell me how can I defy the instinct. Yes... loving you has become my instinct.
I don't know why I feel like keeping the silence when I am with you... alone. All alone. And I just love to keep looking your face.
I get a feeling I can't explain
whenever your eyes meet mine
My heart spins in circles
and I lose all space and time
And now that we're standing face to face
something tells me it's gonna be OK
that I'm ready to fall in love tonight
ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever
but baby I'll try
'Coz I'm ready to fall in love tonight
I know you've been watching
choosing the moment
I've been dreaming of that day
no one before you has gotten to me this way
And now that we're standing face to face
something that I need to say
and I'm ready to fall in love tonite
ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
'Coz I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Nothing is certain
this I know
wherever we're heading
I'm ready to go
I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
cuz I'm ready to fall in love tonight
yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Friday, August 7, 2009
Kuchh iss tarah...
If you loved her in that way, then how can you see her even a little bit of pain, wheather it be physical or psychological. To get her out of pain what will you do?? You will do whatever you can. And when human efforts are not enough, they do not seem to be working then?? Sometimes the bloody norms come in between and you can't do anything you plan for. You rush to some supernatural entity, with the plea to get her out of that grief.
And you wish if her all pains are awarded to you, and you accept them all with a big Thank to Him.
I was listening to a song that I like very much. Sung by great Pakistani singer Atif Aslam. And the feelings of mine.
kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...
kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...
kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de..........
kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...
tu har ghadi har waqt mere saath raha hain...
haan ye jism kabhi door kabhi paas raha hain...
jo bhi ghum hain ye tere unhe tu mera pata de...
kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...
mujhko to tere chehare pe ye ghum nahi jhachta
jaayiz nahi lagta mujhe ghum se tera rishta
sun meri guzarish ise chehare se hata de
sun meri guzarish ise chehare se hata de
kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...
[English translation with my best efforts...]
Let your eyelashes meet mine in the way,
That all your teardrops come on my eyes
You have been with me, all moments, in all time
Yes, this body has sometimes been far, sometimes near
Whatever sadness you have, give them my address
I don't like the sorrow on your face
I don't feel that the sadness on your face is justified
Listen to my request, just eliminate them from your face.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Judy Garland
This movie and the song has been a legacy... a milestone and touching everyone's softest corner of the heart.
In the film, part of the song is played by the MGM orchestra over the opening credits. about 20 minutes later, Garland, in the role of Dorothy, sings Over the Rainbow after unsuccessfully trying to get her aunt and uncle to listen to her regarding an unpleasant incident involving Dorothy's dog Toto and the nasty spinster Miss Gulch, whom Toto bit after she struck him with a rake. Dorothy's Aunt Em tells her to "find a place where you won't get yourself into any trouble", prompting the girl to walk off by herself and sing the song.
It is the bravity to dream... innocent dreams, Hopes[against all the hopes], desire to steal some time from the world. The smell that passes through you like a wave, the eyes that peeps into your soul and the touch that penetrates your body and reaches to your bones. The time to be what you are, the time to be happy, the time to have the complete tranquility, the time to be ecstactic. The time when the time falls short... always, the time the universe moves faster and you feel static... but you live your life in that moment... in that minute. And may be the place that offers that moment is "SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW".
Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?
Thursday, May 7, 2009
I'm easy - Keith Carradine from Robert Altman's Nashville 1975
For me, the best part is the song written, composed and sung by Keith Carradine which won him the Oscar for Best Original Song for writing the tune. I found the song on youtube. Listened. Sung along. And felt. Just compare it with "jai Ho". It is fully composed on guitar only. No huge orchestra. Yes, simplicity has its own Prowess. And look at the lyrics and young dashing Keith Carradine himself on the screen.
It's not my way to love you just when no one's lookin'/
It's not my way to take your hand if I'm not sure/
It's not my way to let you see what's goin' on inside of me/
When it's a love you won't be needing if you're not free/
Please stop pullin' at my sleeve if you're just playin'/
If you won't take the things you make me wanna give/
I never cared too much for games and this one's drivin' me insane/
You're not half as free to wander as you claim/
But I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy.
Give the word I'll play your game as though that's how it oughta be/
Because I'm easy/
Don't lead me on if there's nowhere for you to take me/
If lovin' you would have to be a sometime thing/
I can't put bars on my insides/
My love is somethin' I can't hide/
It still hurts when I recall the times I've tried/
But I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy.
Take my hand and pull me down/
I won't put up any fight because I'm easy/
Don't do me favors let me watch you from a distance/
'Cause when you're near I find it hard to keep my head/
And when your eyes throw light at mine it's enough to change my mind/
Make me leave my cautious words and ways behind/
That's why I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy.
Say you want me I'll come runnin' without takin'time to think/
Because I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy/
Take my hand and pull me down/
I won't put up any fight/
Because I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy/
Give the word I'll play your game as though that's how it oughta be/
Because I'm easy.
Monday, January 12, 2009
I saw you for infinite times / Gaurav

But the eyes are not satisfied.
My heart has limits but your beauty has not,
So I couldn't accommodate the later.
The snake charmer himself was charmed
Water was in subconscious with the beauty of fish.
I licked the dew drops on the leaves
and grass top too...
But there was a thirst for another drop
Which never ended.
I saw you for infinite times,
But the eyes are not satisfied.
Words, beauty, essence, smell...
Everything is spread in you...
In your each atom.
Your shyness was the...
Gloden ray of evening...
I saw them when they were
Scattering over the hills and
Illuminating them.
I saw you for infinite times,
But the eyes are not satisfied.
i am unable to
Friday, January 2, 2009
Extinction / Gaurav
the surface of water,
The spots in your eyes,
make eddies inside me
And that water is nothing but
a Sad morning
Spread over the sand of sky.
Now when I am totally confused
Amidst all the eddies and all the spots
autumn has occupied all
the brances on the tree
no leaf is there...
And this clumsy morning.
Watered eyes like a fish
dust of Setting sun
you have another name - Flame
Before writing it
It sets me on fire everytime and
it pours my ashes into the
Endless river of sand.
And a road runs silently beside me to that infinity...
A foggy morning is your name too,
You are a pearl sown deep inside my Soul,
There is no face of tears,
And no face of milky wind.
Loving you is like
Looking at myself...
In the mirrors of dew drops...
Residing on the top of grasses...
When the sun will come up...
My existance will be extinguished...
By the sun rays...
With the dew drops.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
My Incompleteness / Gaurav

The memory is ticking,
All these days have been absorbed into the cold walls,
You always escape from my hug,
I wake up in unconciousness,
And I try to cover you with my incompleteness.
It has always been tough for me
To break the talisman of your breathe
And cross that cloud.
I am freezed
In this flying smoke
Feeling cursed...
I want to sway my throbs into the wind...
But I know where my borders are.
My hands can't reach yours...
And I'll be getting holes after holes
Somewhere on left side of my chest.
And you will keep spreading the rains
somewhere else.
But amidst of that rain if you have time,
Just have a look on the shadow...
that will be created on
The surface of water that you will pour...
It will swing at the tunes of your
Innocent laugh.
I'll keep dying
in small installments,
This is the way life kills...
Death is so innocent...
Death is just...
It kills once only... and everyone.
I will drown myself with some hope
And I'll be finished
If you will ever ask me
To vacate this land of incompleteness.
Monday, December 29, 2008
A Kiss is a Terrible Thing to Waste / Meat Loaf
If you listen, to the night
You can hear the darkness call
I can barely stand to wait
I can barely stand at all
C’mon closer to me now
It’s like we’re sharing the same skin
We gotta get out of this jail
We gotta let the future in
So many things in your life
That your bound to regret
Why didn’t I do that?
Why didn’t I do this?
So many chances you lost
That you’ll never forget
Why didn’t I make it?
Why didn’t I take it right there?
The loneliest words you’ll ever know
If only-if only it was so
The emptiest words that there’ll ever be:
It could have been me. it could have been me
The loneliest words you’ll ever know
If only-if only it was so
The emptiest words that there’ll ever be:
It could have been me. it could have been me
You’ll have to pay for it later
If you don’t get it when it’s going for free
Believe me -! believe me -!
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
It’s something that’s always been so
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
And one of these nights
You’re gonna show me that you already know
There’s a feast waiting for you
And you’ve never even gotten a taste
It’s later than you think and
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste!
You shouldn’t tremble when we touch
There’s no reason for these fears
It’s a promise that was made
We’ve been promised this for years
I wanna show you it all
What to do and where and how!
Cause we’ll never be as young as we are right now
We’ll never be as young as we are right now!
So many cries in the night
That you try to ignore
Why didn’t I do this?
Why didn’t I do that?
So many unanswered prayers
So many unopened doors
Why didn’t I take it?
Why didn’t I make it come true?
The loneliest words you’ll ever know:
If only - if only it was so
The emptiest words that there’ll ever be:
It could have been me
It could have been me
The loneliest words you’ll ever- know:
If only - if only it was so
The emptiest words that there’ll ever be:
It could have been me
It could have been me
You’ll have to pay for it later:
If you don’t get it when it’s going for free!
Believe me! believe me, believe me!
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
It’s something that has always been so
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
And one of these nights
I’m gonna show you that you already know...
There’s a feast waiting for you
And you’ve never even gotten a taste
It’s later than, you think and
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste!
There’s a feast waiting for you
And you’ve never even gotten a taste
It’s later than you think and
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste!
Tyre tracks and broken hearts
That’s all we’re leaving behind!
It doesn’t matter what we’re losing
It only matters what we’re going to find!
Tyre tracks and broken hearts
That’s all we’re leaving behind!
It doesn’t matter what we’re losing
It only matters what we’re going to find!
Tyre tracks and broken hearts
That’s all we’re leaving behind!
It doesn’t matter what we’re losing
It only matters what we’re going to find!
Tyre tracks and broken hearts
That’s all we’re leaving behind!
It doesn’t matter what we’re losing
It only matters what we’re going to find!
There’s a feast waiting for you
And you’ve never even gotten a taste
It’s later than you think and
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
A kiss is a terrible thing to waste
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Can I Touch You There... - Michael Bolton
Baby, show me what you feel
Come to me, show me somethin' real
I need to know, I need you completely
(closer, baby, closer) Come on closer, baby (let's begin)
Love is takin' over, gotta let it in
Ooh and I need to feel the heart of you
I need to reach the very deepest part of you
Chorus:
Can I touch you there, touch you deep inside
Can I touch your heart, the way you're touchin' mine
Can I touch you there, touch you deep within, oh
Can I touch you there, can I touch you oh...(there)
Oooh Baby, tell me with your eyes
Tell me every secret, darlin'
Every deep desire, till you and I
Are makin' love completely
(closer,baby, closer) come on closer, baby,
(can't be close enough)
I can't help the way I hold you
I just hunger for your love
Oooh and I need to feel the heart of you
I need to reach the deepest part of you
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All I wanna dois touch you, baby
Touch you very soul insideof you
Oooh and I need to feel the heart of you
I need to reach the very deepest part of you
Oh, let me be the one to show you
Just what love can do
Come on, baby, come on
Chorus

