Adieu / Gaurav

I held the corpse of my hopes
tightly to my heart
I have been sad for ages.
You shocked me every time,
and I devastated myself.
I sighed and remembered you,
Whenever I saw any silken dress.


And when close to my heart,
there is a lonely sad cloud,
of sorrow,
you have come with the burning cheeks,
to lit up the dead lamps.

My sweetheart,
this shout of renewal of love,
is not good for my frustrated life,
the flowers once I selected for your feet,
I don't have even their bleak picture in my mind.

Just a accumulated sadness has covered
my heart and soul
Inside me there is no hope.
My helpless life has been
pressed under the excessive
burden o frustration.

To My AGAPE..../Gaurav

Hey my Agape,
Where have you been for so many days? Seems so busy... really??? So busy that even you don't have time to come to my dreams and make my night sleepless. Even I wonder. How was I able not to remember you, recall the time spent with you. Last night I was thinking about it only. And last night I penned down my fantasy that I have for so long. May be this will set you angry... hope you will forgive me as you have always done.
"When I wake up
and find your laughing wet face
The dew drops raining from your hair
kiss my cheeks
and the creases on the bed are glowing like you
and the pillow smelling like your hair.
And I dive deep into the pillow to have a bit of you.
and suddenly you look at
the tea getting cold
and you complain
how much effort it takes to prepare morning tea.


Then only I will understand,
how worthy my madness is
about you."

To My Honeylips...

If one day you feel like crying,Call me. I dont promise you that, I will make you laugh. But I will cry even before you will.
If one day you dont want to listen to anybody, call me. I promise to be very quiet. And I'll turn into an Ear.
But... If one day you call and there is no answer. Get some time to see me. Perhaps I need you.
And I know, I will not find you there;as I have always done.
But you know my Honeylips, this will not refrain me from loving you. I can hold my emotions... but just tell me how can I defy the instinct. Yes... loving you has become my instinct.
I don't know why I feel like keeping the silence when I am with you... alone. All alone. And I just love to keep looking your face.






I get a feeling I can't explain
whenever your eyes meet mine
My heart spins in circles
and I lose all space and time


And now that we're standing face to face
something tells me it's gonna be OK
that I'm ready to fall in love tonight
ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever
but baby I'll try
'Coz I'm ready to fall in love tonight


I know you've been watching
choosing the moment
I've been dreaming of that day
no one before you has gotten to me this way


And now that we're standing face to face
something that I need to say
and I'm ready to fall in love tonite
ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
'Coz I'm ready to fall in love tonight


Nothing is certain
this I know
wherever we're heading
I'm ready to go


I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
cuz I'm ready to fall in love tonight
yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight

Kuchh iss tarah...

There are times when somebody, swifter than the thoughts runs in your veins alongwith the blood. Someone lighter than the air, comes into your arms and want to roam around. Someone smells prettier than the best smell and you want to dive your nose into that black straight silk and wish you never wake up. You empty yourself every night with her. But in the morning, you find yourself filled with her again. She becomes the first thought of the day when you open your eyes. And then you close your eyes again, just to recall the intimate moments that you spent with her. Holding her hands or looking into her eyes or hugging her or kissing her like the craziest person in the whole solar system.

If you loved her in that way, then how can you see her even a little bit of pain, wheather it be physical or psychological. To get her out of pain what will you do?? You will do whatever you can. And when human efforts are not enough, they do not seem to be working then?? Sometimes the bloody norms come in between and you can't do anything you plan for. You rush to some supernatural entity, with the plea to get her out of that grief.

And you wish if her all pains are awarded to you, and you accept them all with a big Thank to Him.

I was listening to a song that I like very much. Sung by great Pakistani singer Atif Aslam. And the feelings of mine.





kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...


kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...



kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de..........

kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...

tu har ghadi har waqt mere saath raha hain...
haan ye jism kabhi door kabhi paas raha hain...
jo bhi ghum hain ye tere unhe tu mera pata de...

kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...


mujhko to tere chehare pe ye ghum nahi jhachta
jaayiz nahi lagta mujhe ghum se tera rishta
sun meri guzarish ise chehare se hata de

sun meri guzarish ise chehare se hata de

kuch is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de...
aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de...



[English translation with my best efforts...]

Let your eyelashes meet mine in the way,
That all your teardrops come on my eyes

You have been with me, all moments, in all time
Yes, this body has sometimes been far, sometimes near

Whatever sadness you have, give them my address
I don't like the sorrow on your face

I don't feel that the sadness on your face is justified
Listen to my request, just eliminate them from your face.

Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Judy Garland

"Over the Rainbow" (often referred to as "Somewhere Over the Rainbow") is a classic ballad song with music by Harold Arlen and lyrics by E.Y. Harburg. It was written for the movie The Wizard of Oz, and was sung by Judy Garland in that movie.

This movie and the song has been a legacy... a milestone and touching everyone's softest corner of the heart.

In the film, part of the song is played by the MGM orchestra over the opening credits. about 20 minutes later, Garland, in the role of Dorothy, sings Over the Rainbow after unsuccessfully trying to get her aunt and uncle to listen to her regarding an unpleasant incident involving Dorothy's dog Toto and the nasty spinster Miss Gulch, whom Toto bit after she struck him with a rake. Dorothy's Aunt Em tells her to "find a place where you won't get yourself into any trouble", prompting the girl to walk off by herself and sing the song.


It is the bravity to dream... innocent dreams, Hopes[against all the hopes], desire to steal some time from the world. The smell that passes through you like a wave, the eyes that peeps into your soul and the touch that penetrates your body and reaches to your bones. The time to be what you are, the time to be happy, the time to have the complete tranquility, the time to be ecstactic. The time when the time falls short... always, the time the universe moves faster and you feel static... but you live your life in that moment... in that minute. And may be the place that offers that moment is "SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW".










Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?

I'm easy - Keith Carradine from Robert Altman's Nashville 1975

Things visible on the surface are not the same at the base. And many times the opposite is also true. And when it comes to movies, who else can depict it better than Robert Altman. Released in 1975, directed by Robert Altman, Nashville is a musical film. A winner of many awards, selected for preservation in the United States National Film Registry, Nashville is generally considered to be one of Altman's best films. The film revolves around 24 main characters with many parallel storylines and strong symphony. It is also a window for contemporary American country music.

For me, the best part is the song written, composed and sung by Keith Carradine which won him the Oscar for Best Original Song for writing the tune. I found the song on youtube. Listened. Sung along. And felt. Just compare it with "jai Ho". It is fully composed on guitar only. No huge orchestra. Yes, simplicity has its own Prowess. And look at the lyrics and young dashing Keith Carradine himself on the screen.






It's not my way to love you just when no one's lookin'/
It's not my way to take your hand if I'm not sure/
It's not my way to let you see what's goin' on inside of me/
When it's a love you won't be needing if you're not free/
Please stop pullin' at my sleeve if you're just playin'/
If you won't take the things you make me wanna give/
I never cared too much for games and this one's drivin' me insane/
You're not half as free to wander as you claim/
But I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy.

Give the word I'll play your game as though that's how it oughta be/
Because I'm easy/
Don't lead me on if there's nowhere for you to take me/
If lovin' you would have to be a sometime thing/
I can't put bars on my insides/
My love is somethin' I can't hide/
It still hurts when I recall the times I've tried/
But I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy.

Take my hand and pull me down/
I won't put up any fight because I'm easy/
Don't do me favors let me watch you from a distance/
'Cause when you're near I find it hard to keep my head/
And when your eyes throw light at mine it's enough to change my mind/
Make me leave my cautious words and ways behind/
That's why I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy.

Say you want me I'll come runnin' without takin'time to think/
Because I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy/
Take my hand and pull me down/
I won't put up any fight/
Because I'm easy/
Yeah, I'm easy/
Give the word I'll play your game as though that's how it oughta be/
Because I'm easy.

I saw you for infinite times / Gaurav

I saw you for infinite times,
But the eyes are not satisfied.

My heart has limits but your beauty has not,
So I couldn't accommodate the later.
The snake charmer himself was charmed
Water was in subconscious with the beauty of fish.

I licked the dew drops on the leaves
and grass top too...
But there was a thirst for another drop
Which never ended.

I saw you for infinite times,
But the eyes are not satisfied.

Words, beauty, essence, smell...
Everything is spread in you...
In your each atom.

Your shyness was the...
Gloden ray of evening...
I saw them when they were
Scattering over the hills and
Illuminating them.

I saw you for infinite times,
But the eyes are not satisfied.

i am unable to

Extinction / Gaurav

Looking continuously from
the surface of water,
The spots in your eyes,
make eddies inside me
And that water is nothing but
a Sad morning
Spread over the sand of sky.

Now when I am totally confused
Amidst all the eddies and all the spots
autumn has occupied all
the brances on the tree
no leaf is there...
And this clumsy morning.


Watered eyes like a fish
dust of Setting sun
you have another name - Flame
Before writing it
It sets me on fire everytime and
it pours my ashes into the
Endless river of sand.

And a road runs silently beside me to that infinity...


A foggy morning is your name too,
You are a pearl sown deep inside my Soul,
There is no face of tears,
And no face of milky wind.


Loving you is like
Looking at myself...
In the mirrors of dew drops...
Residing on the top of grasses...
When the sun will come up...
My existance will be extinguished...
By the sun rays...
With the dew drops.